school started and it was a whole week of hell for me.
we dont end school till ard 4.
and the worse part is, we only have 2 breaks of only half an hour each.
mom, dont blame me for having a minimal attention span in class.
and besides, just in case teachers do visit my blog, im telling you guys seriously..
MAKE LESSONS A WEE BIT MORE INTERESTING.
and im sure one of your excuses would be, oh we're sec 4s alrdy, there isnt time for all these.
whatever.

but nvm,

VERN CAN KEEP ME COMPANY IN SCHOOL!

but oh well, there are certainly some advantage/s of ending school late.
the reason above all reasons would be- we can save money for after Os shopping spree! cos ending school late means i dont have the opportunity to go town after school and set my eyes on pretty stuff which will eventually allow me to splurge!
im not used to gauging my expenditure therefore i hope this would be a good method in helping me gauge my habit of spending money!

torres's is mine!

7:14 PM;
<3

lets just say history just repeated itself.
you denied obvious facts but it proved to show otherwise.
im utterly disappointed with what i saw.
you should be glad in this post im not ranting so much unlike how i used to. im getting to trust you after the previous incident and now this has to come about. im really not sure how am i gonna go about increasing my level of trust for you in the future. seriously, this is really disappointing. i totally understand that you're really a softie at heart but with those people, you have to draw a line between you and them. they cant just throw themselves at you as and when they like. to be honest with you, this is affecting me.. well i think. perhaps im just brooding too much over this matter but i cant turn a deaf ear and ignore this. im like WTF lah but oh well. you said many times that im your only commitment but it doesnt prove to show. from my point of view, i think its better you treasure friendship at this point in life, studies and all. THIS if you know what i mean can wait. im sorry. im just telling you how i feel right now. i've had enough of your sorries and buts.

7:02 PM;
<3

Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, For you I will, For you I will

im confused now. leave me alone.

2:09 PM;
<3

you know i've always thought buying stuff online can really save you the trouble of going shopping.
but it's got its own disadvantage.
you know i went ebay and i bid 25 bucks for a birkenstocks and i regretted bidding for it.
cos i suddenly didnt think the design was nice?
im afraid i'd win the bid and im clueless as to what to do with the birks mann!
i hope someone outbids me and i dont have to worry paying for it anymore.
but oh well chris says hes willing to buy it from me if i dont like it.
so sweet right. hes gonna give it to his sister.
oh well.. im gonna have to start praying even though i havent been praying for a long time now.

its dinner time and i guess i shall have to go buy frickin fried rice downstairs cos mommy's not home, hence, no one to cook for me!

7:01 PM;
<3

tanning session at sentosa with veneta the tan was awesome!
we didnt get any souveniers except for awful sunburns.
mommy's taking leave from friday to thursday.
plan to go on a little holiday at sentosa but since june holiday is the peak period, its hard to find vacant hotel rooms or even chalets for us to stay in.
i guess we can just quit thinking about it alrdy.
and i realised mom and sis are down with fever just about 5 minutes ago.
i wouldnt be surprise if i'm gonna be the next one sick.

we're also pondering as to go tioman island or not, with auntie and her friends.
it'll be fun! with tonnes of ang moh hunks to look at and delicious banana pancakes to eat.
but the company..
seriously, how i wish i can fit my friends into my pocket.
deciding among two things just makes me all the more confused.
-pounts*

6:08 PM;
<3

p.s- samantha, i hope you like this photo.
you're my wonderful always!


dear samantha,
im sure thats just nothing. well im referring to whatever that happened.
dont brood over it too much yes!
im always here/there/everywhere for you.
i sound so much like superman!
well i am somewhat your supergirl right?
having rescued you in just a matter of seconds.
okay enough of my nonsense.
you better say shut up pubes!
its sounds sick enough to shut me up.
anyway like what you said in your blog, its fun catching up with you today.
i know im mean to say this but the credit has to go to _.
if not we wouldnt have met up!
throughout those times when we were like drifting apart,
i still do have flashbacks of those wonderful memories.
i really hope we will still continue to create more wonderful memories!
i love you sam!

hah im soo proud of myself for not spending all my money of clothes, accesories and all the materialistic things.
i bought myself a math assessment book!
say yay!
mommy said this friday and saturday we might be going sentosa and stay over or smth.
hopefully i can ask my friends along!
but it's family time!
please, remind me i have to spend time with my family!

9:59 PM;
<3

another post of the day.
patience has its own limits.
im pissed with the mother now.
i dont see why going out to catch a soccer match is such a big problem in which you must be so paranoid about.
theres no link to if im a girl, i shouldnt watch a soccer match.
so you're trying to say guys cant cook luh.
its the same concept!
to think by keeping me home throughout the holidays can seriously improve my grades?
it makes no difference if i dont open those fucking pulp-filled books.
havent i told you a million times we should compromise and work things out.
the least you can do is hear me out and let me out!
its not like i dont understand what's no.
you dont even give me a fucking chance to explain.
you know patience has its own limits.
and you know, i am capable of doing soooo many silly and awful things to you
but i dont see why by doing all these would change anything.
im 17.
cant you see its obvious i can tell what is right from wrong.
and what is the definition of PRIORITIES.
im not a juvenile no more!
im no jailbird!
give me a break!
you're fucking killing me!

7:10 PM;
<3

i'm having a silly migraine now and my head's throbbing.
it gave me a sudden urge to blog.
its nice being home sometimes.
you know?
shopping can be such a whore at times esp when you cant decide between which top/skirt/shorts/pants/shades to buy.
been studying at home these 2 days.
but im unsure as to whether anything gets in my brain.
perhaps i've been burning too much of my braincells, which might be the cause of a throbbing migraine.
whatever luh.

okay now im clueless as to what to type in my next sentence. it must be you who's eating up all my words. walloping all my words and decreasing what i want to type by half!
im getting so irritated all of a sudden and i dont know whats the reason thats making me irritated.
perhaps its "those stuff i just saw on friendster"
regarding _ _ _ _ _.
i shall just leave it as that cos im sure it wouldnt be nice to further elaborate this on a public blog.
anyway, give me a dose of chocolate syrup and i'll be fine!

tonight's england vs paraguay.
i feel like watching the match but i dont have scv luh.
i wanna go out to catch it!
ouhh and can i add?
i love pink vespas!
prolly shall get one once i get a licence or smth.
okay maybe when im RICH.

and randomness kicks in, again..

12:57 PM;
<3

sitting here in front of my pc,
i still cant get over the depressing weather.
the cause of not being able to go tanning with vern today.
i was all drenched while walking to school today luh.
it started drizzling then a heavy downpour.
my shoes stink after about 2 hours or so?
and i smell damp the whole day.
well thats all the downside of today.

anyway vern made me sandwiches!
bread with nutella chocolate.
thanks for that very sumptous breakfast!
i had kinder bueno for like almost everyday of the entire week?
its delicious but it gets JELAT after awhile.
puvan was the one who taught me that word.
its like cheese? you eat too much and after awhile you feel quesy?
thats smth like JELAT.
yes.
oh and i forgot to add, FINALLY! TODAY'S THE END OF STAR PROGRAMME!
no more remedials!
but more of studying.
hur.
im thinking of doing smth to my hair but i seriously cant decide on what to do with it.
perhaps i shall let it grow longer.

okay i think today's just not the right day for blogging.
im not blogging properly.
more like im chatting with myself.
okay done now.
bye!

7:54 PM;
<3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
im officially 17!
hur but im still a year younger to be officially legal for certain stuff.
its just a matter of time luh.
WAS supposed to catch a movie but didnt so i caught up with vernie.
we went gallavanting ard PS and we bought new pretty hair-ties.
ate hersheys sundae pie and chicken cheesesticks.
wonderful and yet perfect to spend your birthday with your girlfriend.

vernietan!
life would be so effing boring without you.
you know you mean alot to me.
you've alrdy proved to me that you'll be there for me always!
thanks for the uber efficient rescue!
(only you know what i mean)

well, dinner with THE PARENTS was awesome too cos we ate at BREEKS!
and i fully recommend you guys to try the potatoe waffles.
its HEAVENLY luh!
even though i initially had cravings for baked rice.
but that'll do.
nevertheless, i did enjoy my birthday!

AND FOR THOSE WHO RMBERED MY BDAY..
thanks for all your well-wishes.
i really appreciate them cos this shows that i have a place in your heart.
and ya'll definitely WILL have a place in my heart!

11:39 AM;
<3

since there are so many people asking me how was MOS,
i shall be nice enough to blog about it in order to give you guys an insight to how it was like.
we actually trekked our way there.
okay first of all most i shall refer we=clubmates.
clubmates trekked their way there.
clubmates queued for just awhile
before..
clubmates went in as VIPs under the guests lists.
clubmates got seperated cos shirin lost farhan as we were making our way to the VIP room.
we had trouble getting hold of each other cos everyone's using phones and the network was busy.
it wasnt until about half past one that we finally could get hold of each other.
the lost met up with the lost and they clubbed like never before.

tips for clubbing:
-never wear heels cos you'll die with the constant stabbing of shoes on your tiny toes.
moreover your legs will feel extremely heavy.
-stick with each other
-hold on to your drinks at all times if possible.
-be careful of naughty boys; they love grindin'. HUR.

im glad that my birthday's just tmr. but i have no plans at all.
i've alrdy settled on my birthday wish..
i want everyone around me to be happy!
no need for presents.

7:00 PM;
<3

school started and it was a whole week of hell for me.
we dont end school till ard 4.
and the worse part is, we only have 2 breaks of only half an hour each.
mom, dont blame me for having a minimal attention span in class.
and besides, just in case teachers do visit my blog, im telling you guys seriously..
MAKE LESSONS A WEE BIT MORE INTERESTING.
and im sure one of your excuses would be, oh we're sec 4s alrdy, there isnt time for all these.
whatever.

but nvm,

VERN CAN KEEP ME COMPANY IN SCHOOL!

but oh well, there are certainly some advantage/s of ending school late.
the reason above all reasons would be- we can save money for after Os shopping spree! cos ending school late means i dont have the opportunity to go town after school and set my eyes on pretty stuff which will eventually allow me to splurge!
im not used to gauging my expenditure therefore i hope this would be a good method in helping me gauge my habit of spending money!

torres's is mine!

7:14 PM;
<3

lets just say history just repeated itself.
you denied obvious facts but it proved to show otherwise.
im utterly disappointed with what i saw.
you should be glad in this post im not ranting so much unlike how i used to. im getting to trust you after the previous incident and now this has to come about. im really not sure how am i gonna go about increasing my level of trust for you in the future. seriously, this is really disappointing. i totally understand that you're really a softie at heart but with those people, you have to draw a line between you and them. they cant just throw themselves at you as and when they like. to be honest with you, this is affecting me.. well i think. perhaps im just brooding too much over this matter but i cant turn a deaf ear and ignore this. im like WTF lah but oh well. you said many times that im your only commitment but it doesnt prove to show. from my point of view, i think its better you treasure friendship at this point in life, studies and all. THIS if you know what i mean can wait. im sorry. im just telling you how i feel right now. i've had enough of your sorries and buts.

7:02 PM;
<3

Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, For you I will, For you I will

im confused now. leave me alone.

2:09 PM;
<3

you know i've always thought buying stuff online can really save you the trouble of going shopping.
but it's got its own disadvantage.
you know i went ebay and i bid 25 bucks for a birkenstocks and i regretted bidding for it.
cos i suddenly didnt think the design was nice?
im afraid i'd win the bid and im clueless as to what to do with the birks mann!
i hope someone outbids me and i dont have to worry paying for it anymore.
but oh well chris says hes willing to buy it from me if i dont like it.
so sweet right. hes gonna give it to his sister.
oh well.. im gonna have to start praying even though i havent been praying for a long time now.

its dinner time and i guess i shall have to go buy frickin fried rice downstairs cos mommy's not home, hence, no one to cook for me!

7:01 PM;
<3

tanning session at sentosa with veneta the tan was awesome!
we didnt get any souveniers except for awful sunburns.
mommy's taking leave from friday to thursday.
plan to go on a little holiday at sentosa but since june holiday is the peak period, its hard to find vacant hotel rooms or even chalets for us to stay in.
i guess we can just quit thinking about it alrdy.
and i realised mom and sis are down with fever just about 5 minutes ago.
i wouldnt be surprise if i'm gonna be the next one sick.

we're also pondering as to go tioman island or not, with auntie and her friends.
it'll be fun! with tonnes of ang moh hunks to look at and delicious banana pancakes to eat.
but the company..
seriously, how i wish i can fit my friends into my pocket.
deciding among two things just makes me all the more confused.
-pounts*

6:08 PM;
<3

p.s- samantha, i hope you like this photo.
you're my wonderful always!


dear samantha,
im sure thats just nothing. well im referring to whatever that happened.
dont brood over it too much yes!
im always here/there/everywhere for you.
i sound so much like superman!
well i am somewhat your supergirl right?
having rescued you in just a matter of seconds.
okay enough of my nonsense.
you better say shut up pubes!
its sounds sick enough to shut me up.
anyway like what you said in your blog, its fun catching up with you today.
i know im mean to say this but the credit has to go to _.
if not we wouldnt have met up!
throughout those times when we were like drifting apart,
i still do have flashbacks of those wonderful memories.
i really hope we will still continue to create more wonderful memories!
i love you sam!

hah im soo proud of myself for not spending all my money of clothes, accesories and all the materialistic things.
i bought myself a math assessment book!
say yay!
mommy said this friday and saturday we might be going sentosa and stay over or smth.
hopefully i can ask my friends along!
but it's family time!
please, remind me i have to spend time with my family!

9:59 PM;
<3

another post of the day.
patience has its own limits.
im pissed with the mother now.
i dont see why going out to catch a soccer match is such a big problem in which you must be so paranoid about.
theres no link to if im a girl, i shouldnt watch a soccer match.
so you're trying to say guys cant cook luh.
its the same concept!
to think by keeping me home throughout the holidays can seriously improve my grades?
it makes no difference if i dont open those fucking pulp-filled books.
havent i told you a million times we should compromise and work things out.
the least you can do is hear me out and let me out!
its not like i dont understand what's no.
you dont even give me a fucking chance to explain.
you know patience has its own limits.
and you know, i am capable of doing soooo many silly and awful things to you
but i dont see why by doing all these would change anything.
im 17.
cant you see its obvious i can tell what is right from wrong.
and what is the definition of PRIORITIES.
im not a juvenile no more!
im no jailbird!
give me a break!
you're fucking killing me!

7:10 PM;
<3

i'm having a silly migraine now and my head's throbbing.
it gave me a sudden urge to blog.
its nice being home sometimes.
you know?
shopping can be such a whore at times esp when you cant decide between which top/skirt/shorts/pants/shades to buy.
been studying at home these 2 days.
but im unsure as to whether anything gets in my brain.
perhaps i've been burning too much of my braincells, which might be the cause of a throbbing migraine.
whatever luh.

okay now im clueless as to what to type in my next sentence. it must be you who's eating up all my words. walloping all my words and decreasing what i want to type by half!
im getting so irritated all of a sudden and i dont know whats the reason thats making me irritated.
perhaps its "those stuff i just saw on friendster"
regarding _ _ _ _ _.
i shall just leave it as that cos im sure it wouldnt be nice to further elaborate this on a public blog.
anyway, give me a dose of chocolate syrup and i'll be fine!

tonight's england vs paraguay.
i feel like watching the match but i dont have scv luh.
i wanna go out to catch it!
ouhh and can i add?
i love pink vespas!
prolly shall get one once i get a licence or smth.
okay maybe when im RICH.

and randomness kicks in, again..

12:57 PM;
<3

sitting here in front of my pc,
i still cant get over the depressing weather.
the cause of not being able to go tanning with vern today.
i was all drenched while walking to school today luh.
it started drizzling then a heavy downpour.
my shoes stink after about 2 hours or so?
and i smell damp the whole day.
well thats all the downside of today.

anyway vern made me sandwiches!
bread with nutella chocolate.
thanks for that very sumptous breakfast!
i had kinder bueno for like almost everyday of the entire week?
its delicious but it gets JELAT after awhile.
puvan was the one who taught me that word.
its like cheese? you eat too much and after awhile you feel quesy?
thats smth like JELAT.
yes.
oh and i forgot to add, FINALLY! TODAY'S THE END OF STAR PROGRAMME!
no more remedials!
but more of studying.
hur.
im thinking of doing smth to my hair but i seriously cant decide on what to do with it.
perhaps i shall let it grow longer.

okay i think today's just not the right day for blogging.
im not blogging properly.
more like im chatting with myself.
okay done now.
bye!

7:54 PM;
<3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
im officially 17!
hur but im still a year younger to be officially legal for certain stuff.
its just a matter of time luh.
WAS supposed to catch a movie but didnt so i caught up with vernie.
we went gallavanting ard PS and we bought new pretty hair-ties.
ate hersheys sundae pie and chicken cheesesticks.
wonderful and yet perfect to spend your birthday with your girlfriend.

vernietan!
life would be so effing boring without you.
you know you mean alot to me.
you've alrdy proved to me that you'll be there for me always!
thanks for the uber efficient rescue!
(only you know what i mean)

well, dinner with THE PARENTS was awesome too cos we ate at BREEKS!
and i fully recommend you guys to try the potatoe waffles.
its HEAVENLY luh!
even though i initially had cravings for baked rice.
but that'll do.
nevertheless, i did enjoy my birthday!

AND FOR THOSE WHO RMBERED MY BDAY..
thanks for all your well-wishes.
i really appreciate them cos this shows that i have a place in your heart.
and ya'll definitely WILL have a place in my heart!

11:39 AM;
<3

since there are so many people asking me how was MOS,
i shall be nice enough to blog about it in order to give you guys an insight to how it was like.
we actually trekked our way there.
okay first of all most i shall refer we=clubmates.
clubmates trekked their way there.
clubmates queued for just awhile
before..
clubmates went in as VIPs under the guests lists.
clubmates got seperated cos shirin lost farhan as we were making our way to the VIP room.
we had trouble getting hold of each other cos everyone's using phones and the network was busy.
it wasnt until about half past one that we finally could get hold of each other.
the lost met up with the lost and they clubbed like never before.

tips for clubbing:
-never wear heels cos you'll die with the constant stabbing of shoes on your tiny toes.
moreover your legs will feel extremely heavy.
-stick with each other
-hold on to your drinks at all times if possible.
-be careful of naughty boys; they love grindin'. HUR.

im glad that my birthday's just tmr. but i have no plans at all.
i've alrdy settled on my birthday wish..
i want everyone around me to be happy!
no need for presents.

7:00 PM;
<3